Do you feel sad even listen to a piano piece? Even no lyrics is involve, or anything?

I'm feeling a tad emo recently. Dun really have good nite rest.. always dreaming, bad ones. Most vivid one is... I dreamt that I was kinda pain to death due to menses pain. Bleeding all over with an 'exploded' abdomen. And i just sat there and kept crying and crying, never ask for any help, like i know i deserved it. omg... maybe becos I'm still on hormones medication and kinda worried what will happen to my body once i stop taking the pills. Another, I kept running and running on a piece of really nice grassland, great sun, great weather having the most beautiful sky I ever wish for, but I'm running alone, dunno where I'm heading to. And i was running carefree-ly! Happy and all. Like a happy child playing on the green green grass. sigh, i wish i could do that in real.

And today, I realised I shldn't keep wanting to quit my current job. Weirddd. Everything just seems to be 'opposite' of what I actually wanted initially. Anyway, gonna stop here if not I'll get more n more indepth and dwell on unhappy stuffs. I took half day to collect my repaired laptop, carry it and went home by long bus journey, felt so like my poly-days. I'm missing some part of me.... Take me to the missing hours....

why does solitude devour us all in this world of love and possiblities?

Nitey. I think I'm behaving like a crybaby and dont wish to grow up, too fast.

9:08 PM

innocent always